Sunday, August 30, 2009

My baby is 10 months


My baby darling, you're 10 months today, almost gonna be a toddler soon. No matter how old you are you're still gonna be my precious baby. So pardon me that 20 years on, i'll still fret over over the littlest things because a mother's heart will never change. Love you heaps, mommy

Monday, August 24, 2009

In the season of change

Isaiah 43
1 But now, this is what the LORD says—
he who created you, O Jacob,
he who formed you, O Israel:
"Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you are mine.
2 When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.

Decisions, events, or words can ignite wildfires that completely change our own life's landscape. That is not necessarily a bad thing. Fire is nature's way of clearing brush and enriching soil for future growth. Sweeping change can do the same to our lives. However that doesn't negate loss, discomfort and fear we feel during fire's refining process. During those times, God, Himself becomes our refuge and strength. In those flash fires of life, the Saviour immerses us in cool, life-giving waters of His love and protection. God allows raging wildfires to refine us, yet not set us ablaze.

Sunday, August 23, 2009

The snorings of my life


The snorings that breaks the tranquility of early mornings brings serenity to my soul.i so love them.

Monday, August 17, 2009

Serving with Great People - Judah 4

I am simply amazed at how God's people would rise up to the occasion to give and serve beyond their physical limitations. Last Friday we had our huge event which catered for 46 people! There were so many new visitors that night too! Praise God for that!
When it came to the night before the event, the people were working so hard trying to get everything together and ready for the big night. I am so blessed to have people with such heart to serve God. We even have new visitors that came to help out. It is just so obvious that the heart of servant hood has been passed on through the people.
I want to do my best to lead this unit into greater heights in God. May God's hand be so evident in my service towards Him as well.

Monday, August 10, 2009

Till I see you ...


The greatest love that anyone could ever know

That overcame the cross and grave to find my soul

And 'til I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home

I'll trust in You

With all I am I'll live to see Your kingdom come

And in my heart I pray You'd let Your will be done

And 'til I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home

I'll trust in You

****
I will live to love You

I will live to bring You praise

I will live a child in awe of You

****
You are the voice that calls the universe to be

You are the whisper in my heart that speaks to me

And 'til I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home

I'll trust in you

You alone are God of all

You alone are worthy Lord

And with all I am my soul will bless Your name

© 2005 Cbs/Epic/Wtg Records

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Beginning of Mobility

The start of Janice's freedom, meant the end of Mommy's (aka me) freedom. I can no longer leave her playing without supervision. I started this morning trying real hard to "zone in". I was out of place, brain unactivated, sitting in the hall playing with Janice when she suddenly started moving forward in a pro manner. Though not the usual crawl, kind of a arms push and body slide along kind, it was fast. She could finally get to places she desired, and was she pleased! She started in the hall, and finally ended up outside the bathroom and back. That really helped startle me and brought be back to earth from my la la land. It was an overnight thing, nothing close led up to this. It almost seemed like she was practicing all night, but must be in her dreams and she kind of figured that out.
Left her at Child care, the teachers said she didnt perform her new stints, but once she got back home in the evening, it was freedom once again. This time she managed a half crawl that looked like she limping because she only used one leg to drag herself forward. Kind of bum shuffling.
I still haven't quite child proof the house. Hubby, you there?

Full Time

Since the birth of Janice, I have gotten many people asking if I was a full time mom. Regardless the number of days Janice goes to Childcare, or for that matter 10,20 years down the road when she starts getting her own life, I will always consider myself as a full time mom. The day I knew she's conceived, follow on the day she was born, God has placed upon my life one of the greatest responsiblity a person can have. A responsibility over a life, a person, a precious one. The intensity of what you could be doing as a mom could vary over years or season, the role remains. I am a mother, 24/7 round the clock. No one can ever imagine the magnitude of it till you step into it. I could never have emphatised with another parent no matter how often I baby sit another child. I've learnt to assume this role and accept that my life will no longer be the same. I start to realise why till this day my mom still ask what I ate for dinner and ask me to see a doctor when I clear my throat. It's a full time job and I've only just begun. Sometimes I think I've done a bad job, but I'll have a life time to learn and I will. (but will never be perfection). Being a mother reveals that I am weak and how HE is strong. It's really humbling, but I am really loving it.

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Happy 9th month B'day Janice!!

Just the little note to my little darling,

It has been as long as you have been in mummy's tummy! And now you are all grown up (compared to 9 months ago) and learning to crawl, stand and yell. And not to mention how much you love to play with catch with your little rubber balls.
I just love the times when you fall asleep on my shoulder since last week. Just your cutest face with pouting lips when you're rested on my shoulders.
Continue to enjoy your learning process, I am still waiting for the day that you are kicking the soccer ball while I be the goal keeper.

I love you best, I love you most, I love you high, I love you low, I love you deep, I love you wide, I love you, I love you, I love you T.....H.....I.....S M.....U.......C.......H!!!

Daddy

9 months



Hey sweetie,


It's been 9 months since you were born and sometimes I still can't believe that God has entrusted me with this huge role of motherhood. There are many moments where I still feel the sense of adequacy, someone so precious like you is placed in my arms. Managing your allergies, teaching you the right ways, giving you the best, what to do, what nots, all these can still sometimes be daunting. But yet this amazing journey of watching you grow, along with the availability of God's grace makes this enormous responsibility such a privilege.


You've grown so much this month. Spending that 10 days with your cousin Sophie have made you a little chatterbox J there was a few days when you said "duck" all the time. When you see your rubber ducks in the bath, when you see the little ducky ball, you just go "uck uck uck Duck". It's funny. This was alongside with your "pa pa pa" phase. This couple of days you've started your "hrop hrop drop" sounding words whenever you chuck something to the floor. You sometimes blabber non-stop in the car and you've filled the house with your happy chuckles and long-winded stories J And oh, it's so fun, you're even responding to clap your hands" whenever you hear that phrase on TV (baby can read) and when we ask you to, and while singing the song "if you're happy and you know it." We used to clap each time you manage to turn on your musical toys, and now you clap for yourself. You've also learnt to throw a ball too, and that thrilled daddy heaps.


You still can't really crawl yet. You sort of have a leopard crawl, but mostly you go backwards. You love pulling yourself up to a kneeling position using your toys, the sofa or our arms/shoulders as support. You'll look highly pleased when we help you up to a standing position as you hang on to us/toys etc. Your bum will even start shaking at the sound of music. Not being able to move around frustrates you, but don't worry little girl, keep exploring you'll be able to do it someday.


Your all time favorite is peek-a-boo, and our asian version of "coooooo……cha". You'll do it yourself and amuse others with it. You can never get enough of it, and neither can I. Once you laughed so hard with daddy that you threw up your dinner all over. That giggling spell continued the moment you saw daddy again.


There were many trying days this month too. There were many days in a row where you can't sleep properly at night and would want to play (in your tired state) at 4am in the morning. There were also days in a row where you will create such a big mess during your meals and get really whingy. There will also be the days in a row where your nose is extra stuffy and there will be rashes due to your allergies. Sometimes it's painful to watch but most times you take it at your own stride. Let's hang in there, God is doing something wonderful, bringing us to the right help, and most of all given us His strength.


There are just so many funny things to share about you, but blogging has become more like a luxury as you grow more and require so much more attention and play-time together. I am counting on God to help me remember your milestones and development and maybe one day I can share to your kids how you were like. Time flies, you are out of me almost the same length of time as you spent in my tummy. Hope you're enjoying it as much as I do.


I love you munchie!


Mummy

Monday, July 27, 2009

my 4 AMs

Most people would be in deep sleep at 4am. Cold, dark, almost silence all around. But what have I been doing at 4am for the past many nights?
Janice's been having a 3.30-4am wake recently. The problem with this is that she wakes up almost wide awake and wants to play! It's not very fun to play at that time of the morning and I was (am) completely zombified. She would relentlessly cry if I left her in my cot, 5 mins, 10 mins. I will soothe her, leave the room, sit outside and pray, read the bible, and sulk, wondering when my "last straw" will come. She will eventually only sleep after about 1.5 hrs, in which I would think she will wake up later. But no, she will still wake up at 6am. So from 3.30 till 6am, i would have slept for about ... go figure.
Sigh, how to break this cycle? Anyone any ideas?