My baby is 10 months

My baby darling, you're 10 months today, almost gonna be a toddler soon. No matter how old you are you're still gonna be my precious baby. So pardon me that 20 years on, i'll still fret over over the littlest things because a mother's heart will never change. Love you heaps, mommy

In the season of change

Isaiah 43

1 But now, this is what the LORD says—

he who created you, O Jacob,

he who formed you, O Israel:

"Fear not, for I have redeemed you;

I have summoned you by name; you are mine.
2 When you pass through the waters,

I will be with you;

and when you pass through the rivers,

they will not sweep over you.

When you walk through the fire,

you will not be burned;

the flames will not set you ablaze.

Decisions, events, or words can ignite wildfires that completely change our own life's landscape. That is not necessarily a bad thing. Fire is nature's way of clearing brush and enriching soil for future growth. Sweeping change can do the same to our lives. However that doesn't negate loss, discomfort and fear we feel during fire's refining process. During those times, God, Himself becomes our refuge and strength. In those flash fires of life, the Saviour immerses us in cool, life-giving waters of His love and protection. God allows raging wildfires to refine us, yet not set us ablaze.

The snorings of my life

The snorings that breaks the tranquility of early mornings brings serenity to my soul.i so love them.

Serving with Great People - Judah 4

I am simply amazed at how God's people would rise up to the occasion to give and serve beyond their physical limitations. Last Friday we had our huge event which catered for 46 people! There were so many new visitors that night too! Praise God for that!
When it came to the night before the event, the people were working so hard trying to get everything together and ready for the big night. I am so blessed to have people with such heart to serve God. We even have new visitors that came to help out. It is just so obvious that the heart of servant hood has been passed on through the people.
I want to do my best to lead this unit into greater heights in God. May God's hand be so evident in my service towards Him as well.

Till I see you ...

The greatest love that anyone could ever know

That overcame the cross and grave to find my soul

And 'til I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home

I'll trust in You

With all I am I'll live to see Your kingdom come

And in my heart I pray You'd let Your will be done

And 'til I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home

I'll trust in You

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I will live to love You

I will live to bring You praise

I will live a child in awe of You

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You are the voice that calls the universe to be

You are the whisper in my heart that speaks to me

And 'til I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home

I'll trust in you

You alone are God of all

You alone are worthy Lord

And with all I am my soul will bless Your name

© 2005 Cbs/Epic/Wtg Records

Beginning of Mobility

The start of Janice's freedom, meant the end of Mommy's (aka me) freedom. I can no longer leave her playing without supervision. I started this morning trying real hard to "zone in". I was out of place, brain unactivated, sitting in the hall playing with Janice when she suddenly started moving forward in a pro manner. Though not the usual crawl, kind of a arms push and body slide along kind, it was fast. She could finally get to places she desired, and was she pleased! She started in the hall, and finally ended up outside the bathroom and back. That really helped startle me and brought be back to earth from my la la land. It was an overnight thing, nothing close led up to this. It almost seemed like she was practicing all night, but must be in her dreams and she kind of figured that out.

Left her at Child care, the teachers said she didnt perform her new stints, but once she got back home in the evening, it was freedom once again. This time she managed a half crawl that looked like she limping because she only used one leg to drag herself forward. Kind of bum shuffling.

I still haven't quite child proof the house. Hubby, you there?

Full Time

Since the birth of Janice, I have gotten many people asking if I was a full time mom. Regardless the number of days Janice goes to Childcare, or for that matter 10,20 years down the road when she starts getting her own life, I will always consider myself as a full time mom. The day I knew she's conceived, follow on the day she was born, God has placed upon my life one of the greatest responsiblity a person can have. A responsibility over a life, a person, a precious one. The intensity of what you could be doing as a mom could vary over years or season, the role remains. I am a mother, 24/7 round the clock. No one can ever imagine the magnitude of it till you step into it. I could never have emphatised with another parent no matter how often I baby sit another child. I've learnt to assume this role and accept that my life will no longer be the same. I start to realise why till this day my mom still ask what I ate for dinner and ask me to see a doctor when I clear my throat. It's a full time job and I've only just begun. Sometimes I think I've done a bad job, but I'll have a life time to learn and I will. (but will never be perfection). Being a mother reveals that I am weak and how HE is strong. It's really humbling, but I am really loving it.