Janice turns 6 months

Hey little chirpy, you've turned 6 months today.

It's a discipline for me to sit down and journal your little journey. I am so tempted to procrastinate and be either caught up with the housework or something around the house or snuggle into bed in the evening. But I want to really learn to set aside this time, at least once a month to remember and reflect.

As I type this, I congratulated your daddy for 'surviving' 6 months of fatherhood. 6 months is a milestone for you in areas of your growth, but a bigger milestone to us, well at least to me. I still can't believe at times how blessed I am to have you as my daughter. Too blessed.

You constantly amaze me (and daddy too) how good a traveller you are. This month, we took a trip down to Melbourne for a week and you were just such a happy little baby. You love being out, anytime. You smile and chuckle to our conversations and singings. Even in your sleep, you somehow sense it and slept extra well in your pram as we push you around the city. You slept pretty well in your little travel cot at night too as you comically scratch the netting to sleep.

Developmentally, you've learnt to sit up unaided, roll over and 2 little tooth sprouted (I wasn't too impressed though when you bit me real hard when I fed you ... heh). These are among the many other things I have noticed, from your increased vocabulary of baby lingo, to your ability to play and figure how things work. You definitely look like you've enjoyed this month to the max. I'm so proud of you for you have adapted well to Child care, napping long and playing hard. Popo's company made such a difference too and you're always contented when more people are around to shower you love and attention.

It's been a big journey for little you and an enormous journey for me; But one thing I am glad is that God has been walking with us, every bit of it. Some days when you had your eczema flare ups and runny, congesty nose worries me nuts. It was like a possesive nature as a mom to ensure you're always ok in the pink of health. I wanted all these out of you, I was afraid you would develop other things like asthma, I was afraid that you;d end up having sinus like mummy and daddy. Basically every bad thing we had, I wish it will not happen to you, and every ailment we did not have, I found it hard to accept when you showed symptoms of them. I wanted everything perfect till God spoke to me to remind me of our imperfections as excellent opportunities to rely on Him.

Thank you for helping me understand how to live today by enjoying every moment with you and not to be consumed worrying about what is ahead. Watching you grow each day is one of the greatest privillege and I don't want to miss a single moment by allowing imperfections and anxieties to draw my eyes away from this very moment.

Yet, no matter what it is, you're more than enough for me. You're wonderfully and fearfully made and you couldnt have been better. Never let anyone or anything tell you that you are any less.

I love you dearie.